This morning, like usual, I woke up before 5, made a cup of tea, and went downstairs to my office. However, unlike most days, the news that filled my computer screen sucked me in. The networks were reporting an active story, with live video, of SWAT and other public safety people moving in on a target that was assumed to be Boston Marathon Bomber Suspect #2. Suspect #1 had died earlier during the night and it appeared that Suspect #2 would soon be apprehended.
This is a huge and tragic national news story, important on many levels. I don’t mean to minimize it. However, I live 3000 miles from Boston and there is nothing I can do to alter the outcome. Therefore, it should not have consumed so much of my morning. I am embarrassed and disappointed with myself. Even though I managed to pull myself away for a 60 minute workout and shower and my 30 minute breakfast and Bible reading, I allowed myself to waste a couple hours glued to a story that will be much more efficiently processed after it concludes. By late morning I became conscious of what was happening. I was wasting time and I needed to get to work. Even with that realization I couldn’t concentrate, so I chose to take the car for an emissions check to get my mind off of the unfolding events in Boston.
It is at times like this that I become painfully aware of how weak I really am. I am a fallen and sinful man in great need of God’s grace. God’s standard is perfection, and, like the Tsarnaev brothers, I fall short. My only advantage is I have tasted and trust God’s amazing grace.
Please join me in confessing sin and thanking God for his grace!
As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus. For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. (Ephesians 2)